The Chaos theory

Random things happen seeming to have no connecting pattern but some point in time a clear pattern emerges revealing a deterministic sequence.This effect also came to be known as the butterfly effect.

The flapping of a single butterfly's wing today produces a tiny change in the state of the atmosphere. Over a period of time, what the atmosphere actually does diverges from what it would have done. So, in a month's time, a tornado that would have devastated the Indonesian coast doesn't happen. Or maybe one that wasn't going to happen, does. (Ian Stewart, Does God Play Dice? The Mathematics of Chaos, pg. 141)
This is something applied to weather.

This is a theory studied in physics,philosophy,maths but after a careful observation I begin to believe that chaos theory is something evident in each of our lives.People having a good memory and an instinct to relate random events would be able to derive a pattern from chaotic events in their lives.If a pattern is identified from past events,the same could be used to predict their future events.

Still thinking in depth on applying the chaos theory to my life,let me see how it works....

A Good Song

I've been so many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs I've made some bad rhyme
I've acted out on stages
With ten thousand people watching
But I'm singing this song for you

I know your image of me is what I hope to be
I've treated you unkindly but baby can't you see
There's no one more important to me
Baby can't you please see through me
Cause I'm singing this song for you

You taught me precious secrets of the truth witholding nothing
You came out in front and I was hiding
But now I'm so much better and if my words don't come together
Listen to the melody cause my love is in there hiding

I love you in a place where there's no space or time
I love you for in my life you are a friend of mine
And when my life is over
Remember I was singing this song for you

You taught me precious secrets of the truth witholding nothing
You came out in front and I was hiding
But now I'm so much better and if my words don't come together
Listen to the melody cause my love is in there hiding

I love you in a place where there's no space or time
I love you for in my life you are a friend of mine
And when my life is over
Remember when we were together
We were alone and I was singing this song for you
We were alone and I was singing this song for you

What do Gods wish?

Do you know something that walks on four legs at dawn, on two legs for the rest of the day, on three legs at night and then goes to sleep, wondering why the hell did I walk right from dawn? I think that something walks just because everything around it does the same. It sees everything around walking on two legs and so tries to do the same but can only crawl on fours. It keeps crawling until it can walk on twos. Then everyone around keeps running for something so even it starts running. Mostly, does not get what it runs for but sometimes gets what it runs for and feels happy about it. Keeps running all the day until the day ends, gets tired and now walks on threes. It cannot run anymore. Even then it keeps walking on threes until it falls down on earth breathing frantically. Then starts wondering why the hell was I walking and running all along. Ironically, its only after falling onto earth it looks around to see how many of them were walking and running along with it. At that point a realization happens. The realization proves that it was fun to have walked as a group than all alone!!!!

That something is none other than YOU and ME. You and me crawled on fours when born, will continue walking on twos for the rest of our lives and will walk with a walking stick when old. Certainly, I do not understand what Gods wish when you and me keep walking like this?

The Last ten minutes of life

I have been thinking about those ten minutes right from the day I heard a dying
person say "I see my mom, she is asking me come". People around me put forward a hypothesis that ghosts of forefathers have come to accompany the departing soul. That was not the only time I had heard of such an explanation. There were a couple of such occasions wherein I have heard of such incidents - a dying person sees some dead person from his/her past life in those last ten minutes.

Those who hate philosophy, this blog is for you .Of course, why should everything in life be looked at in a philosophical perspective. I have seen a lot of episodes about ghosts in "Discovery" but each episode relates in some way or the other to some science. There are incidents which cannot be explained scientifically. I do not deny that either but after going through some scientific journals I could find a convincing answer about those last ten minutes of life. Those journals explained some concepts of human brain, conscious and abnormality.

At the same time I put forward a poll on a website asking people what they would do in their last ten minutes. The most popular answer was "What do you need in your last ten minutes rather than hug the person you loved the most in the whole of your life?” According to me that was the best answer and my answer too. It was the same answer that was given a scientific perspective by some journals.

When the body starts to cease its functions one by one, the sub-conscious mind knows what is happening. The pulse starts declining; the heart knows what is happening. Then, the heart craves to see the people it loved the most in the whole of its life. If that most wanted person is alive ,he or she would be there to hold on but if that person is already dead then there is no way to see him/her. Fortunately, those last moments the sub-conscious cannot digest that fact and something abnormal happens. This abnormality is called "hallucination”. In a normal human, brain is the master and subconscious mind is a side stick. Those last ten minutes the subconscious becomes the master and instructs the brain to project an image of the person the heart wanted to see .Its obvious that parents are the ones everyone spends their important part of life and so a majority sees them in the last moments.

In some cases the person seen in those last ten minutes might be "The crush" of tenth standard. Who knows? Something realized very late!!!! Perhaps it’s possible that people discover the love of their life only then, as seen in movies!!!!!
Don't be the person of this category. May be, think of those moments right now and get an answer right now.

Then I started pitying people such as soldiers, warriors, revolutionists etc..,Who do not even have that privilege of "The last ten minutes”. Those are people who might get killed in a fraction of a second and neither the brain nor the subconscious mind has the time to project any images. Perhaps they do not even know what happened.

We keep talking about mysteries around us and the irony is that each part of our body is itself a mystery in its own way.

My friend's story but yet to be a love story- Part II

Its high time I finish Laurel's story because I am very sure that it is no more a "yet to be a love story".It has nearly taken a year for me to get to the underground reality.

Nobody could guess what was happening between Laurel and the sleek bee. My work sometimes needs help from Laurel's sleek bee and we were bound to interact. Whenever I had to talk to the bee, it always made a passionate enquiry -"How is Laurel doing?" Of course,whenever we talked this would be the first enquiry. Everyone around knew that this bee already had a king bee in some other place but still it had some corner for Laurel. I openly told Laurel about this and he denied. Then something occurred on accident. Accidentally I saw Laurel talking to the bee:

Laurel-"You look good"
Ms.Sleek-"Thanks"

Anyway this conversation is just a normal one. Appreciating somebody might not necessarily mean anything. Perhaps, might be an indication but I could not guess. You never know what lies in-between the lines. Hope you agree with that opinion of mine.

One fine morning the bee came to work and declared "I am leaving to some other place". I saw Laurel at that moment and just could not find any reactions. He gave some advice about the formalities to leave. I thought there is nothing to ado upon to help Laurel.

The bee left with a "bye bye". Laurel seemed to be normal and the bee seemed to be happy while leaving. A month later myself and Laurel went for a dinner and started talking about boys, girls and love. In a split of a second and at the slip of the tongue Laurel said,” My only bee has already left”, he looked down and then said,” it’s gone where it has to".

It was a "bang, bang" on my head. It was "bang" because I just don’t know how many more Laurels I will meet in my life. I have already seen many of them if not one of them.

Writing about Laurel, I am just trying to grapple about why human relationships are so complex. I am sure Laurel's bee had some corner for him but not sure what it was/is. Unfortunately many of us know whether a choice is right or wrong only after making the choice. Of course, I am no good at commenting at any of others choice.

Sometimes we just do not know what is happening to us and by the time we realize, it would be too late for action. Why did God create a system like this, just to break many and scar a few with memories? I say this because I have met people who keep waiting for years though they know that it is of no use.

I even met a sincere guy who feels his life is out of the groove even after years after the break up. I seldom meet him but whenever I do so ,Celine Dion's lyrics strike me "Love can just touch one time and last for a life time...., go on....".The guy still says "There is lot more in life than just this" but I know how he would keep feeling for the rest of his life.

On the other hand I also met a nice, wonderful and charming chap, who warned me saying that,
"It is bookish”;” It is fiction”;” There is nothing in this world like this”;” Be careful, don’t fall into it".

At that moment I should have told this nice chap that "You have not been loved the way you should have been and that is why you think the way you think". Perhaps, some past relationships change certain perceptions. Sometimes, I too get carried away by certain things but when doing a analysis I step out of everything.

We as humans unfortunately realize important relationships only when far apart from each other and do not realize the importance and comfort when together. That includes even Mom, Dad and your siblings. I want to say that do not let people go out of your life just like that when you realize that they are important, no matter even if it is late. That might sound easy but take it from me; it is the most difficult thing to do on earth. I say doing it is difficult because handling perplexities involved in human relationships are an enervating experience for even the tougher of the toughest.

I am God,You are God,Everyone is God

Have you ever seen yogurt under a electron microscope ? There would be thousands of bacteria,namely lacto bacilli, running around on its surface.So are we eating those live micro-organisms along with yogurt ? Can you enjoy the yogurt if your eyesight had the capability to see those micro-organisms without the help of a microscope ?

We all love eating yogurt whether its natural or flavored because we cannot see the micro-organisms running around.The same would be the case if we watch ourselves under a high power microscope.All humans have millions of organisms ,namely bacteria,virus etc, running all over our bodies.I realized that there was a reason as to why human eye was not designed to see microscopic things.Can you ever kiss your partner if your eyes had a focal length like that of a high power electron microscope.Can you imagine people roaming around you with millions of organisms crawling around their bodies.

All humans whether male or female look handsome or beautiful because our eyes are weak.Does it mean that we see what we want to see and we do not see what we refuse to see or does it mean that we were created in such a way that we see only things what we are supposed to see or we do not see things which would make our lives difficult.

I really do not know answers for all the questions I have but I could realize one might be true fact.The fact is that there are millions of living organisms inside and outside our bodies.In other words we provide shelter to many living organisms whether good or bad to us.We are the universe for these species.These organisms thrive because we live.Perhaps this might be the reason that many saints boldly say "I am God" ,"You are God" and "Everyone is God".

Special Moments

When questioned about 4th of July the world would answer of what made it special, and if it was about 15th Aug 1947 the entire subcontinent would answer. Very few people in the world would answer if questioned about 11th July 1982; it was the day when team Italy beat Germany in the soccer world cup finals and lifted the Soccer World cup for the third consecutive time but there was something else that happened too. A baby boy was born exactly the same time when Paolo Rossi of the italian team lifted the world cup for his nation.

This baby could not even write English alphabets on the day before the lower school annual exams. It was only during the exam he managed to write all the alphabets and got a nod from the teacher to get into the next grade. This boy found it very comfortable to sit on a rice cooker and watch his mom cooking for him .One fine morning he got up from bed to find his mom not in the kitchen and sat on the cooker but sitting on a hot fuming rice cooker was never going to be comfortable. This part of life can be aptly called "ignorance".

Days passed to gave way to years but still the "cooker" nightmare remained. The baby grew to be a kid and everyday dreamt of sitting on a hot cooker. Then came the primary school cultural events and the kid was forced to give a speech about the school to an audience. That was the first time the kid found his hands and legs shivering. He thought it was nightmare number two but after giving away the speech it was a proud moment though there was little applause from the audience. There were only lessons to learn and orders to receive, so this part of life can be aptly called "slavery".

Years passed to give way to a decade and the kid grew to be an adolescent. The "cooker" nightmare was history. Being a pet to many teachers he became the vice captain of his team named "Shamrocks" but little did he know that the job of a vice captain was to just hold the team's flag on the sports day marching event. Everything else was supposed to be done by the senior grade student leaders but still this fellow tried to make a difference by shouting "left" "right" "left" so loudly that none of the audience never found it difficult to spot where the roar came from. This part of life can be aptly called "silly".

All senior grade student leaders were already great friends of this fellow now. The school teams were in a fight to win the year's "best team shield" but unfortunately "Shamrocks" lost. The senior grade folks cried like babies as it was the last chance to win something in their school lives and the vice captain was starring at them. The "shamrocks" captain stopped crying, walked towards the starring vice captain and said "will you get me the shield next year”. Still not sure what this part of life can be aptly called.

The following year the vice captain was one of the "Shamrocks” student leader and found his fellow leaders very talented and hardworking. Their motto was "Fight, Kill or die”; the shield is ours" and obviously it was their shield that year. This part of life was "friendship".

School days were over now. The college was a different life, a life where the guy knew what the world is like. It was the time when he learnt about people who do not open their huge cash boxes to spare a penny to a poor kid and also about people who break their earthen pot to give their life savings to a unknown distant sufferer of natural calamity. It was the time when he saw people who pray in the name of God and also people who fight in the name of God. It was a time for the quest of knowledge, information and survival. This part of life was called "stepping into the world".

Years passed and his mom still finds it difficult to believe that he finished his UG in a professional course. Though not an achievement at all it was an achievement for her perhaps she knew about the "alphabet" struggle.

Two and a half decades passed from the day Paolo Rossi lifted the 1982 world cup. The baby who is a young man now works for a technology company and is trying to peep into the future to see if he can achieve something precious like what Paolo did.